You used me, just like a child would a toy,

It was too late when I found out you were a playboy,

You had already broken my heart, shattered my trust,

crushed my soul,

Pushed me into a dark abyss,

a never-ending hole,

I hated you for all you?d

put me through,

But deep inside I knew I still cared for you,

I put on a mask of indifference, but inside my heart would cry,

Each time you ignored me as you passed by,

I?d lie to myself over and over,

Say that we were never meant

to be together,

But not a moment did my heart give up hope,

That, without me, you?d realise that you couldn?t cope,

On the outside, I impersonated one moment hate, the other coldness,

But on the inside I was a big mess,

I was a failure, nothing in my life was going right,

I had been on a cloud, but was now falling from a real height,

My world was crashing down around me,

There was nothing I could do but just let it be,

I was alone, confused, desperate and scared,

Tortured by the thought that you had never really cared?

But then, little by little, I learned to smile again,

I learnt that there is always

a rainbow after thunderstorms and rain,

My friends and family,

they helped me move on,

In the battle surging within me, I had finally won,

It took ages, but I was finally able to forget,

My eyes were no longer moist, my cheeks were no longer wet

I had erased from my memory the picture of you and

I together,

I had, at last, managed to bury your memories, seemingly

forever?

But now, like a shadow from

my past, you come crawling back to me,

Saying you?d like me back, repeating you?re sorry,

You have with you a billion sweet words, a thousand pleas,

Things that would have once brought me down to my knees

But now I?ve grown up

and moved along,

I?ve hardened my heart and learnt to be strong,

Things can never be like they were before,

Coz you left me when I needed you, and now I don?t want you anymore,

Some time back, you had been my whole world, my very

universe,

Losing you was like some kind of unimaginable curse,

But now, being free from you

is like a blessing,

Your kisses, your hugs, your affection - now to me they mean nothing,

Exactly, a year ago, it was you who had left me stranded,

You who had decided when our relationship ended,

Today, to you, there?s nothing

I would like to say,

Just turn my back and walk away?

<B>Niharika</B>